Permanent.

No matter how many times you've tried.

You just can't forget them.

Tattooed to your thoughts.

Scarred to your souls.

Bounded to your hearts.

Reckless; you're tired.

They're permanent.

-dideedayat

Life.

It's life.

It's not going to be that easy nor that hard. 

Deep breathe and continue living. 

Smile and stay positive.

-dideedayat

You and I

You and me, we're bumper cars. The more I try to get to you, the more we crash apart. 

- Alex and Sierra

It has been awhile since we talked, and I'm not okay. Well you seem fine. So fine that nothing about me bothers you while everything about you just bothers me every way possible. Yes I do miss you. Yes I miss the way we used to talk. Yes I miss the sound of your voice. But every time you came across my mind, everything got blurry. Blurry enough to erase the positivity I had in mind. And the saddest part is there’s nothing I can do about it.

I used to wish that one day I’m going to wake up to a life where we never met. Too long I waited. I finally realised that we came across each other for a reason. You may be my saviour for the moment but never forever. You taught me that self-love is the most important thing before you love others. You taught me that even how sweet the journey was; nothing’s going to stay forever. You taught me not to fall too easily for someone that makes you feel special for only that particular moment. You and I are two lines that met once and never again. You are my past and I am yours.

We got to learn to let go of things, because some things are better thrown away than kept. I still miss us.

-dideedayat

New Phase.

Assalamualaikum!!

There I am, thinking, am I really in college? It has been 4 weeks since I registered. Time flies when you have fun. Yes it’s fun here. Although it was awkward at first, well the ice broke. Now everybody’s so crazy so hectic. I admit it is hard to make new friends, for me. But somehow I made tons. Tomorrow is the election for student council and I am super anxious. Yeap I’m elected for student council. I really want to be one, but it is now in the hands of the students either to vote me in or out. Wish me luck!

I’m having so much fun studying here. As a Foundation in Science and Tech (FiST) student, the teachings are quite fast. Keep it up hun before you lose it. Oh and yeah I’m currently studying in Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang Kedah for FiST UNiKL. So north-y hahaha.

Here are some pictures of my time here:

Group Minggu Silaturrahim

Homeroom T20 Hebat

Sir Sirhan pun layan selfie.

Geng Gila2

I’ll be coming home on the 9^th of July for Aidilfitri. One week holiday before Aidilfitri. So two weeks of holiday which is also our semester break. Hit me up if you’re free that week! Maybe we can buka puasa together or anything. Ok! See you soon.

Stay fabulous.

We did awful stuff - PWTC Book Fair

Assalamualaikum!!!

Tadi me and Acap and Anuar pergi PWTC book fair. Macam biasa budak budak SPM seperti mereka akan terus ke floor buku buku pelajaran ni. Aku jeling je lah kan dah habis SPM so tak perlu lah nak meroyan pilih nak beli buku bagus. Gitchew. So lepas teman dua budak sekolah tu, aku pergi cari booth MPH ya ampun rupanya dekat pintu masuk tadi. Gigih lah kitorang pergi balik. So aku beli buku buku yang demikian.

Buku WHERE SHE WENT ni sequel dari IF I STAY. Dia ada sampai sequel 5 tau. Lepas buku ni ada JUST ONE NIGHT, JUST ONE DAY, JUST ONE YEAR. Aku macam nak beli semua tapiiiiiii aku beli buku lain instead. Lepas habis yang ni baru aku beli lah.

Then buku THE BELL BETWEEN WORLDS ni Acap kata best sebab muka depan dia macam magic magic hahaha plus aku baca belakang dia pun not bad ah. Tebal tu tebal tapi aku baca sikit tadi boleh tahaaan aaahhh.

BETTER THAN PERFECT ni bukan buku magic magic ok. Kalau korang suka buku pasal life ke romantic ke, korang mesti suka buku ni haha. Seronok kannnn.

Then bila dah habis shopping buku, kitorang jalan lah turun pergi stesen Putra tu. Aku dah nak terkucil memang urgent lah pokoknya. Beli tiket tu aku cakap lah nak pergi toilet. BOLEH PULAK TRAIN TU SAMPAI!!!! DENGKI BETUL. Dah lah dekat seberang. Acap pun dengan yakin nya berlari naik tangga sampai terjatuh jatuh bukunya. Dah macam kena kejar setan dah tiga tiga. Ya Rabbi masuk koc depan sekali tu haas berdenyut segala urat nadi otak aku. Maka sekali lagi terduduk lah kami kat atas lantai KTM tersebut dengan penuh keyakinan. Hahaha disebab kan stesen berikutnya sampai KL Sentral tak ramai orang haha sampai KL Sentral baru bangun dan turun. 

Then kitorang singgah KL Sentral nak makan makan kat NU SENTRAL and menggedik nak bergambo dekat escalator lawa tu. Kebuluran. Belek punya belek benda alah floor plan tu. last last makan foodcourt sajoh. Minah dua orang tu seronok menyantap makanan Korea apa tah nama nya. Aku layan nasi putih ayam goreng mamak kuah campur. Nyum enak. Eh eh mekayu sangat kau nyah! Lepas tu kitorang bergossip lah kan perkara wajib tu. Lepas beli tiket KTM ke stesen rumah masing masing tu, singgah lah beli Chatime kejap. Pastu merempat dekat platform sebab baru terlepas train. Maka duduk lah 3 ekor ni tepi tiang dengan penuh santun. Lepas habis sambungan gossip food court tadi, train sampai. Semua gelabah hanjeng nak cari mana koc berhenti. Kekadang kan tengah seronok berebut beratur nak masuk koc, koc wanita yang berhenti depan korang. Toleh kiri kanan semua wanita. Korang pun terus blah buat taktau je haha. So dengan semangat je bawak Chatime masuk train YA AMPUN ADA PULAK ORANG KTM KAT DALAM TUUU. Aku pun terkial terkepit nak sorok Chatime size large tu. Masuk masuk terus dapat tempat duduk bawah sign 'no food and drinks allowed'. Train bergerak je kitorang tergelak tak cukup oxygen sebab dah terkial terkinja nak sorok air. Pastu semua senyap. Memang lengang habis. Tet tett tettt. Bunyi game sorang mamat ni memecah kesunyian. Dia punya khusyuk bermain tu sampai bercakap sorang sorang. Kitorang punya tergelak tu ya ampun pecah usus. Setelah lama ketawakan mamat tu, kembali sunyi. Orang keliling tu perati je mamat game tu. Beberapa minit lepas tu, kitorang bau kentut. Acap tanya ah Anuar dengan yakinnya "Kau kentut ke weh?" HAHAHA ANUAR SURUH SENYAP JE. LAGI LAH KITORANG TERBAHAK MACAM ORANG TAK BETUL KAT SITUUUU. Tapi dia kata dia tak kentut pun whatever ah kan. Kembali kepada mamat game tu, dah senyap tu. Then dia bukak casing phone dia, pasang lagu, letak kat telinga. DIA NYANYI PULAK HAHAHAHAHA. Tah lagu apa tah. Habis pecah buah pinggang usus besar kecik aku tahan gelak. Lama pulak tu weh. Dua tiga lagu lah jugak. Orang lain semua pandang je dia tu, dia macam jenis tak kesah gitu kan so haaaaaa. Orang lain dah tergedik gedik senyum sorang sorang. Beberapa stesen berlalu, dia stop. Dia turun stesen dia. Baru semua kembali tenang.

Tak baik sebenarnya kitorang gelakkan mamat tu. Tapi sebab kan enjin ketawa tu masih panas sejak naik train, maka terus start enjin terbahak terkekek. Sorry lah ye kalau terasa hati huhuhu. Rasa bersalah lah jugak bila dah turun tu. Haaa moral of the story, jangan ketawakan orang. The End.

Apa masalah kau?

Assalamualaikum!!

So lepas isyak tadi, family aku ajak pergi mall to repair my sister's laptop sebab dia macam tak boleh bukak. So jalan punya jalan sampai lah the gadget section. Bagi laptop my sister tu, abang kedai tu on selamber je. Harus lah aku terbakar. Kenapa tetibe boleh on?! Alang alang sampai section paling fave semua orang, pusing pusing dulu. My dad decided nak beli CPU baru. So okay layan je lah teman dia beli that CPU. Tapi uncle tu cakap kena upgrade some stuff kan dia kata dalam 40 minit siap. Perut aku pun dah lapar. Kitorang turun makan dekat kedai bawah tu kat luar mall. 

After around 40 minit (kot), my dad suruh aku and my sister pergi bayar and pick up the CPU. Dia bagi duit semua lah ofcourse, aku ni pokai af dah. So aku jalan macam fabulously lah kan hadumak biasa lah aku haha. Pastu selisih dengan dua lelaki ni. Yang aku panas nya kalau selisih saja takpe. Tau tak dia cakap apa?! "Jale tu molek gak abe" (Translate: Jalan elok elok sikit lah bang)

Aku dah panas. Aku dah panas. Aku macam dah tak boleh tahan. "KAU INGAT MUKA KAU CHANTEK KE WEH DAH MACAM TONG SAMPAH TEPI LONGKANG DAH AKU TENGOK BODOH". Yes I said that. And semua orang macam pandang haha malu gila sekejap tapi so what. Apa masalah tah dah lah muka macam haa malas nak cakap. Indon lagi kacak. Tong sampah lagi wangi. Longkang lagi bersih. Ha imagine. Sakai. Sorry kalau nak complain kenapa mulut aku longkang, tolong tengok balik macam mana perangai kau. Dua ekor tu pandang je turun escalator. Aku jeling je lah. Kesah pulak haku. 

Nobody actually kesah on how you look. Nobody cares. Tapi kalau perangai ala longkang Chow Kit. Tu yang buat orang judge rupa kau. Kalau kau tak cari pasal, orang takkan judge rupa. Kecuali orang tu perasan chantek. Jaga perangai tu bang. Hidup tak lama. Kalau aku jalan macam mana pun, bukan kau penat bukan kau yang lenguh. 

Sekian cerita pasal abang dua orang yang rasa diri dah bagus sangat :)

Chedah over and out.

We're graduating :)

Assalamualaikum!!!

Yup so i graduated high school. After years years of sekolah. I finally graduated. Lepas ni masuk Uni pulak. Im so gonna miss school. Teachers and friends ofcourse. Lepas ni we're gonna go on seperate ways, our choice. Make a good on for yourself. Here are some pickchurse from graduation day.

5 Ikhlas in memories.

So dukacita dimaklum SPM tak jadi tangguh do the first paper will be on 3rd November and habis on 25th November for my stream. I hope you readers (kalau ada) tolong doakan for my best on SPM for 11A+. Halalkan everything between us. Lain macam bunyi dia tu.

Also for my friends, study smart. Kawal emosi elok elok. Banyakkan berdoa, InsyaAllah Allah tolong. Lepas usaha, jangan lupa tawakkal. Kekuatan kita bukan kekuatan kita, tapi kekuatan Allah. All the best peeps.

Once said. 

SPM bukan segalanya. Tapi segalanya bermula dengan SPM. 

See you guys next month. Bye.

Chedah over and out.