You and I

You and me, we're bumper cars. The more I try to get to you, the more we crash apart. 

- Alex and Sierra

It has been awhile since we talked, and I'm not okay. Well you seem fine. So fine that nothing about me bothers you while everything about you just bothers me every way possible. Yes I do miss you. Yes I miss the way we used to talk. Yes I miss the sound of your voice. But every time you came across my mind, everything got blurry. Blurry enough to erase the positivity I had in mind. And the saddest part is there’s nothing I can do about it.

I used to wish that one day I’m going to wake up to a life where we never met. Too long I waited. I finally realised that we came across each other for a reason. You may be my saviour for the moment but never forever. You taught me that self-love is the most important thing before you love others. You taught me that even how sweet the journey was; nothing’s going to stay forever. You taught me not to fall too easily for someone that makes you feel special for only that particular moment. You and I are two lines that met once and never again. You are my past and I am yours.

We got to learn to let go of things, because some things are better thrown away than kept. I still miss us.

-dideedayat